I had 2 people close to me die within a week of one another. One of them died way too young. He hung himself in his garage evidently over some girl issues. I still miss him greatly and wish he was still with us. We had a lot in common and I wish we could have spent more time together before he left. Shortly after this tragic news, I wake up to my mom crying because she just found out her brother Terry, and my closest uncle, had died in his sleep from taking the wrong medication the night before. Ever had to attend consecutive funerals/memorials for a family member and a close friend? It sucks.
People have done a great job this year of showing me how unreliable and self-centered they can be. I’ve had people flake out on important matters in both business and my personal life, friends be so completely self-absorbed to the point that their life is shambles around them yet all they care about is having a “good time”, and I’ve also been betrayed by individuals I thought were close friends. I have experienced more pain this year than almost all 20 prior years of my life combined. I watched my younger brothers stumble and make mistakes and learn lessons I myself went through just a few years back. I watched one suffer serious personal, medical, and legal issues and yet continue with his bad mistakes, despite my mother’s prevalent wishes of self-cleansing.
But, like I mentioned, not everything this year has been bad. My brother realized his mistakes and is working at living the life he should be. I hope for his sake he continues his current approach and regard to life, he will find it much more fulfilling in the long run. In the same attitude, I am working hard to change my lifestyle. After a comment by a long-time friend just last week, I have agreed that I need to focus on “de-stressing my life.”